Headaches

Today wasn't a great day. I woke up with a really bad headache and just couldn't get rid of it at all. I took Tylenol and took a nap and everything I tried failed. I was grouchy all day thanks to my headache and on top of it all Dale had the same headache from yesterday today. Poor guy. He did go to work cause we really can't afford for him to miss anymore work. I wish that wasn't an issue but for now it is. Although we may have a good lead on a job for him but the downfall is that he would be gone for six months at a time and only home for one month. But its great pay and would totally eliminate all our money stress. But its not final yet and so we go on with our everyday lives. Keep your fingers crossed and us in your prayers that he gets the job cause we could really use it at this point. Well I am bowing out early tonight thanks to this stupid headache that wont go away.

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Lazy Daisy Day

Not to much happened today. We all slept in today and it felt great. We didn't do a whole lot of things today. Mostly it was a Lazy Daisy Day. There wasn't much fighting today either. Dale, the kids and myself all went down and swam for about an hour and a half and then came home and chilled for the rest of the day. Dale didn't go to work tonight cause he wasn't feeling well. I hope he isn't getting sick cause I really don't want to be sick. I got a call from my sisters in California today. They really want to come out and see me but with the summer being almost over I really doubt my mom is going to send them out. Either way I really miss them bunches. All of them not just my sisters. Well its getting late and I am a bit tired so I think I will end it here.

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A perfect day so to speak

Today was a good day. I got up and went to my Dwa class and got a butt kicking. It felt great. I love when Christie kicks our butts. Most would disagree with me but I love it. That's why I keep going back. If it didn't work I wouldn't go. Anyway after class I came home and cleaned up the house then took Dale and the kids including Elyssa's friend Victoria down to our pool at the apt and let them swim for a couple of hours. Then Victoria went home and we went food shopping. When we got home and everything was put away we spent the rest of the day playing games and watching a couple of movies together. I have to say it was a perfect day. The kids didn't fight with each other at all and we all laughed and had a good time together. I wish all of our days were like this one. I do have to say though I am ready for them to go back to school. They really do get bored way to easy during the summer. I told them that I can't remember once as a child ever being bored. We always just used our imaginations and came up with a new game or something to bide our time until dinner. Of course we also lived in a neighborhood and time when you didn't have to really worry about people stealing your kid or doing something worse to them. This generation just has way to many things to worry about. So what happens we end up having to entertain them all the time and they loose their imagination. Oh well I guess its a cross all parents have to bare these days. I am pooped so I am going to keep it short tonight.

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Saying goodbye Isiaha / Nothing important

We didn't do a whole lot today. I went to my DWA class and the kids played in the Kids zone while Dale worked out in the gym. After that we went and got a little bit of food shopping done and then went to say goodbye to James and Isiaha. They are moving back to Utah for a couple of years while they sort out a few things and then they plan to return to live here permanently. I will miss that little boy so much but I know his mommy will be happy to see him everyday. After all that we came home and Dale and the kids swam for a couple of hours while I straitened up the house. Then we had to call our resident computer guy to come and once again fix our Internet. After everything was done I made dinner and now we are all going to bed early.

that's all for now....blog at you later.

a day out/ new phones

Ok so today was a great day out. We hung out together as a family and just had a great time. We went to go and update our account at At&t to add two more lines. one for each of the kids. They have been begging for a phone of their own for awhile now so we decided it was time since they are both so independent now. We need to be able to get in touch with them when we need them. So anyway we went to the store to buy the kids' phones and found out that they were having a sale on Blackberrys since it was the end of the month. So we ended up buying two blackberrys with the Otter Box cases for twenty bucks each and gave the kids our old phones. It was a great deal. I have been wanting a new phone for awhile now so I was happy with the upgrade. As was Dale. Now its the fun time of really learning how to use it. Plus I found out that I can download apps on my phone so I am going to try and get my scriptures on my phone. Anyway I need to go for now.

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Twilight Saga Eclipse

Ok so I have been so looking forward to this movie coming out. All of us girls got together and went to the midnight premiere and had a blast. When I say all of us girls I mean there were 14 of us total. Jen (Niki's sister), Niki, Me, Meghan, Ryan, Jen Mantlo, Megan (Jens sister), Kelsey, Ashley, Carmen, Cassie, Julia, Christie, and Michelle. We all had such a good time. We got to the movie about an hour and a half early so we all chatted and laughed and took pictures and just plain had fun until the movie started. The movie by the way was awesome. I loved it so much but I can't wait until the last one comes out because of all the books Breaking Dawn is my favorite so I am excited to see how well the movie turns out. From what I understand it will be broken up into two movies because there is just so much material that needs to be covered from the book that they can not put it all into one movie. Either way I can't wait for it to come out. Well I need to go now so....

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Disconnected

Ok so have you ever had one of those days were you feel completely disconnected from everyone and everything. Where no matter what you do or what you say nothing gets better. Yeah well I have been having one of those weeks. I really don't know what is going on with me. I want to hang out with my friends and spend time with my family but I just can't bring myself to do it. Sometimes I feel like I could just disappear and everyone and everything would be much better. I don't know what to do. Nothing I try seems to help and the more I want to talk about it the more I just cant. Lord I wish whatever was wrong with me would just go away. I just want to be normal and have a healthy life. Including my health. I want to be a social person and I want to have a great relationship with my kids. And I want to feel like I am at least somewhat attractive despite what others say about me. I know my husband loves me for who and what I am but I don't. I hate not loving myself and I hate always wanting to be alone even though I don't want to be alone. I know that doesn't make since but in my head that's how I feel. I want to loose this weight because I feel like a skinny person trapped in this fat suit that I can't get out of no matter what I try. I work out. I eat right. I do everything I am suppose to and I'm not changing. Why God Why can't I just for once get something I really want and need. Why can't I just have it easy for just once. I'm not asking for forever just for a little. I understand we all have trials we must endure and you don't give us more than you think we can handle but I am drowning here. I feel like I have two ton weights tied to my feet and I can't come up for air. Please God Please just help me through this.